Day

   Sometimes I enjoy looking at the sky with an absent minded perspective, often without realizing at first I'm doing so. I feel at home and complete as if anything else is under what I'm experiencing. The darkness and fragility of the human experience is often blinding but what's beyond this is easy and unconditional. Recently I was thinking of us as characters and how our drama is just a complex act. When I drink enough kava this is extremely pronounced. I'll indulge in sadness just to feel, I'll get angry because I want to experience. I'll experience things just because it allows that wiggle room in the moment. This is experience from the inside and without it this movement would not occur. Similar to a show or act. It's importance is irrelevant as it can end at any time and whats outside functions with or without soul level interaction anyways. It must hold something though as there would be no reason this all exists. The most powerful vision I've ever been shown was of a mirrored sky far away while still physically on the ground. Invincible what flowed from it through me is what keeps me alive and moving. If anything is done, everything is fine. We live for less than 100 years in most cases, this is nothing to what is outside. Just a dream to navigate. I had a dream last night and looked in a mirror without realizing I was having one and I was a completely different person in a familiar place and unfamiliar situation. If I didn't realize this this only tells me every experience is equal to it. We play roles in our own environment for the show we are constantly learning from It's times like these I'm so grateful for the gift of life even if not ideal and only getting darker. After the worst I'll know another experience, I'll realize more when I'm free into the sky again I couldn't get from any other incarnation on earth. Essential? Possibly not but useful if a time calls for it then it was worth something for what it was. Be the best character you can be, that's all you know and it's the only chance you'll get to be this one.