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  When I'm in a car going somewhere further than I normally walk I tend to take interest in the sidewalks between places or the narrow strip of road that can barely be called one in relation to where I'm going. Usually the store or going somewhere to eat offers a manufactured modern comfort with many ways to enjoy it yet you're bombarded with products offering something natural with connections to a place you would find outside the dull streets outside or even in terms of a certain grocery store organic. Things from outside at some point in direct connection with a natural aspect of our world largely untouched by humans given through means far less so. From my experience as a walker unable to drive myself what is felt that is most vibrant on the outside without any forced pleasure of sight, sound, or touch are isolated aspects of sensory input  from things experienced. Things that occupy my mind and bridge gaps where there's nothing but concrete and cold air, it gives this vague area life I can use so that I don't stop moving. Without this there is nothing but input and the absence of self is uncomfortable. There's nothing to do, nothing to say, and nowhere to go. Anything that is felt is the final answer, that's all there is presently from where the point of observance is. But these places to go and what they offer is catering to an addiction we need to thrive, the addiction to comfortably experience the whole of our own world brought to us in a way we can appreciate with our senses. Many will walk into a grocery store and buy organic produce to cook later, they possibly been to a store of ready made products before or simply enjoyed the night sky from the comfort of a vehicle or the parking lot itself. Maybe it was a restaurant where they were served exotic food and this bond with the area they were outside of this experience has now been interconnected with the essence of the location outside allowing the aspects of of it to be felt as an extension of the related restaurants focus that happens to be less industrialized. With this they may feel motivated and healthy with a more open perception in attention to details of the world around them but they didn't make these things they used, they didn't contribute to their harvest. They only spent some money and moved somewhere in a position to observe what they did and how they did. Nothing had to occur but the experience of connection through a separated piece of another location's product where it's unlike the cold streets outside and there is more nature to enjoy the openness of that happens to share aspects of what is outside of this place. We seem to learn the easiest from the handicap of natural comfort we normally would not have access to so consistently in places we feel the most comfort in given the state of mind and body is ready. From here we are able to experience the gifts of creation given there is comfort with room for growth of awareness that may eventually lead to less need and more of an understanding or what makes us happy as more training wheels on the consciousness are able to be removed. When someone has moved on there is no reason to return to anything but only to review. I see this addiction as unavoidable as the root of it is the fragility of flesh and the way information is processed. We come back to everything we do because there is something we are subconsciously processing to use permanently to experience more when there is nothing to experience. Less is always everything that isn't specific but integration and filters need to be more open or entirely removed and with that what we feel is us. No one drops that, so this is why longing occurs. Losing this results in dysfunction of the body and mind but allows life to be experienced through any sensation. This is what we need as a whole but this will also destroy everything as is in our current state of being. With this said I can only guess that this life is meant to gather a specific set of information from a certain base of observance and interaction to use for something else and we are using the disposable vessels made for it to be sacrificed for this but the mercy relies on our ability to further learn and thrive if a way is found through this. Addiction is the nature of conscious life and it's purpose that allows connection and variety, but to overcome addiction would be to abandon life to a large extent physically if not entirely.